Being in crowds scares the shit out of me. I had gotten over it for a while and now I seem to be back I where I was before. Basically I just don’t know how to interact with people anymore. I’m afraid they just won’t accept me. It really isn’t fair that I don’t give people a chance but I can’t really seem to help it.
There are just some things that are said, whether directly involving me or not, that I just can’t seem to get over. These things get said and more than likely I over analyze the shit out of them. I just wonder what if they meant this by it, or did they really mean that instead… It bothers me on a daily basis. I don’t know what to think about it really, other than that things just stick in my head for a long time and I can’t seem to let them go. It’s pretty much like all I can remember are bad things that people say and never the good. I’m sure I’m not the only one who thinks or feels this way but I haven’t really talked to many people about it and when I do they can never really seem to relate so it doesn’t help me any. I like being able to talk to people about what’s going on with me. It helps in a way that I can’t explain and I’ve never really had anyone that seemed willing to listen to me before just recently with new people I’ve met and consider good friends. These good friends are keeping me sane even if they don’t realize it.